Million Miles

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

You know, there are times in your life when you want to re-evaluate everything that you've ever done. All the actions and choices that you've taken up intentionally or unintentionally, out of force or choice. Because if you do not monitor yourself and throw yourself down for everyone to pick at and make assumptions about, you get very close to believing those assumptions. In other words, you loiter just inches away from being a hypocrite without even quite realising it. So constant thought and reminders are necessary for everyone to stay on the track.

I started out with a simple act because I thought it was what Allah wanted and I did it for Him alone. But after years and years of practising, it became just another ritual that I went through to go by my day and the seal of 'true purpose' was worn out by other trivialities. You could be sporting a 3 feet long beard and a topi on the head but this outward religious baggage bears little importance when weighed in comparison with the 'essence' behind these acts. And if one thing Shytan's an expert at, its rusting our beliefs. Silently and slowly, he feeds on, making as little noise and chaos as possible, but working on to create disasters that last. Every day, from morning till night, we carry through so many obligations and deeds, but without putting much thought. Practise makes perfect but what good is perfect when its without consciousness. Actions are not done for the sake of activity. Rather the point is to make a premeditated choice, and every time favouring Allah above all.

posted by Niqabi at 6:29 AM

3 Comments:

Aya said...

This definitely hit home...thankyou!

9:57 AM

Umar said...

i've looked hard, but can't find this one hadith i came across long ago.

the gist of it is:
to perform a deed for the sake of the people is a sin,
but to avoid a deed, thinking you are avoiding showing off is also a sin.

(i completely butchered the translation of the hadith, but i hope you understand what i'm saying)

6:47 PM

Niqabi said...

suleman and aya : jazakallah for the comments:)

Umar: Wow..is there really such a hadith! Because I've wondered about this for a long time. Insha'allah I'll try andlook up for the actual hadith. Jazakallah for sharing it with us.

7:27 PM