Million Miles

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Monday, January 17, 2005

Restriction.

Nothing's worse than the feeling of being restricted. It bugs me to no end and I greatly value my freedom-of all sorts. I cannot even imagine the idea of anyone trying to force something over me that i STRONGLY dislike ! How can people go about excersing so much force on anyone other than themselves?I hate the feeling of being possessed. Its good to be good to everyone, but too much intimacy seriously scares me.I'm glad to be with people who are very caring and kind to me, but a little bit of consideration on their part would make a world of difference.I'm not beating aroud the bush, its very simple to understand.I'm afraid I'm being too open with my feelings but thats what a blog is for, right!?

P.S : Do you hate me for writing that?

posted by Niqabi at 4:39 AM

10 Comments:

Anonymous said...

I don't think the person this is meant to be for, will even read this soon and I cannot be sure about whether she will hate you for writing it or not...
I CAN say that i am a teeny bit naraaz with you for writing it!! You can't expect me to hate you, because i love your jokes:D, but still girl...
You aren't all THAT restricted you know...*they* are considerate and kind more than often and I messed up stuff for you, so I'm sorry!
*i needn't leave my name*

9:34 AM

Niqabi said...

Allah !!
Ofcourse you needn't write your name, I know you jst too well to figure that out but who on earth told you to hate me !!!:P:P
Listen, I'm to be loved, ok?And I love your company as well so you don't need to say this over n over again that you messed up things for me !!! You're so overly polite sometimes, its hard to believe its you:P

10:21 AM

Anonymous said...

Polite toh I am...i know:P
Never been too proud of it-
If u need lessons, just come to me...i don't charge a lot:)
The rest of your comment made no sense to me...
YOU; to be loved?!:P...don't go together:P:P!*jk*
keep smiling niqabified...or laughing(just make sure u don't do it at the wrong times!like 2daY;)! )

2:20 AM

Anonymous said...

Well first of all u need to get ur blogging strategies straight. A public blog means no freedom of speech AT ALL and writing solely for the purpose of entertainment of people. And well coming to what you said, its actually wonderful if we put our blogs together. Watever I miss on, you write about it. Our blogs are like compliments to each other (not substitutes though, mine is waaayy kooler! *j/k* :P)You are so right about the restricted wali baat. I have never before in my life felt so helpless and dependent on someone else. Its such a complicated and undescribable situation that I cannot even start putting it into words. Everyday I look forward to making things better and everyday they get worse...I'm completely helpless :S Never been so controlled....

U neednt worry who I am, I'm always really close!

8:25 AM

ATY said...

u're not being open at all yaar...u're very confusing...but maybe it's just that i'm stupid.
acha...i didnt know this...lekin..u don't strike me as being lyk that at all...but...ah, i dunno...my mind is all messed up rite now

10:18 AM

Anonymous said...

i disagree with the second anonymous poster
*yESS you!*;)
Public blog i.e Entertainment of others, therefore Freedom of Speech!:P:P
And BOTH of you-you aren't restricted OR controlled!! Even though the situation you are in, is complicated, it will get better InshaAllah...Don't be helpless...I shall fix everything-*or not!*(kehnay mein kia hai??):)

3:29 PM

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3:19 AM

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5:00 AM

Niqabi said...

Anonymous 1.

Yes you CAN be polite when you want to but I like you more when you're not :P You're right about the freedom of speech, although I do not excersise it much in real life but on the internet, YES I DO.Actually my post came out to be rather strong and restriction is not exactly what I meant but it was something to that effect.So I s'pose it was a bit exaggerated. And jee jee we're waiting for you to fix things ( rather make them worse, lol *joking jee*). I see you've posted your comment twice, but I can't find a way to delete it . Hence you'll have to bear the embarrasment of posting the same comment twice, all your life !!

Anonymous 2.
I strongly disagree with you here ! The only reason why I've opted for public blogging is to make people aware of my feelings and I don't want to 'mould' (sp?) them according to their moods.Are you crying already? oh dahling, lol, the thing is that...I know that YOU know why I posted it so don't be a TT , acting all wise n cool!!

ATY:
Yaar I'm being really VERY open this time ! But maybe you don't understand it because of the aforemnetioned problem? lol I was jst joking, really I was. Nahi yaar, its got nothing --well not ALOT to do with you, its probably just my imagination or something. I get overly weird sometimes and hence this post.

By the way there is no way the world to thank you for the Eid gift other than saying THANK YOU! You're such a sweetheatd-in giving gifts n all , lol

5:22 AM